I got a great idea from a twitter friend to finally write a decent blog post. Sadly it’s the post that I’ve been hesitating to write for a really long time. Everytime I would want to write this post, I’d put it off thinking it’s just temporary and that I’d change my mind soon after. I guess I finally decided to stop being a pansy and say it loud and clear: I think I’ve finally lost interest in manga and anime.
This has happened to me once before. In 2004 I got really bored with shows and it had been a year after I quit fansubbing. I got into Japanese dramas which then led me into this weird obsession with Johnny’s and at the time the only anime I recall watching is School Rumble. Then comes 2006.
2006 was the year when I got into anime blogging. Seeing all the great blogs of animeblogger.net, reading people’s recaps of shows like Haruhi and Higurashi sparked my interest. I was watching 17 shows per week and posting 4-5 blog posts a day. I started going to anime cons once more, cosplaying again, buying more manga, drawing my first doujinshi, and finally making my first visual novel.
After releasing RenAi Blogger things sorta went downhill. I think I felt like I’ve “done it all”. Fansubbing, scanlating, cosplaying, doujinshi drawing, visual novel making, blogging, figure collecting. I mean how much more is there left? By fall of 2008 I was really sick of episodic blogging and the mediocre selection of shows really didn’t stimulate my interests. The time I used to spend on all this stuff was now spent on playing an online golf game because I found that more interesting than watching the same exact shows I’ve seen in the last 10 years of anime viewing. In a way, the blog crash was sort of a relief for me.
It gave me a chance to start over without all the pressure from certain fan groups, but also gave me that “you don’t HAVE to always blog anime feeling.” Unfortunately while this was good in a sense, it had a drastic effect on my anime viewing. One of the reasons I started blogging summaries of shows was to keep myself from getting back logged. Prior to anime blogging, I would backlog on shows and then by the time the show ended, I found myself losing interest and deleting the show without ever finishing it (i.e. honey & clover). With anime blogging it kept me on track with every episode that aired, I was never behind and therefore I’d finish watching more anime.
However now it’s different. Watching a show weekly makes the show seem really awful. It’s like “why is it that back in the day shows seemed much better?” The answer is simple: because I marathoned them since most of the shows I watched had aired years before I was even into anime. Now watching every week you can only judge on what you see that week and most of the time, it’s pretty bad. (See Akikan.) All the shows that I thought were great back then like Slayers, seem like complete shit to me now.
For example, this weekend an MMORPG I play had a special double experience event so I decided to make that my priority. Due to this, I completely forgot what shows aired and what I was supposed to download to “watch later”. I was like “ok I know there’s Abyss which I always back log on.” Then yesterday it hit me that I forgot about Akikan. Every Thursday I remember that I have to watch Clannad, but then I have to sit there scratching my head to remind myself that oh yea there’s also Kurokami. On Monday I completely forgot about Soul Eater because I was annoyed coming home from a work day where the entire internet at work was down and I had to figure out what to do with myself for 8 hours.
It’s Wednesday, I still haven’t seen this week’s Soul Eater, last week’s Akikan and Abyss and today is drama day so that means I need to now download Meichan no Shitsuji which is about the only thing I can seem to remember to blog lately. It’s pretty sad, but it’s really obvious what my brain gives a crap about on the subconscious level. Sadly, anime isn’t it anymore. Even some of my hobbies outside of anime/manga are pretty much dying too.
I haven’t actually bought any new manga in almost 6 months. I used to walk into book off and hoarde loads of it. In the last 6 months I hoarded loads of it back to book off to sell to them. I kinda wanna know what happens with Shugo Chara & Kaichou wa Maid Sama but I don’t have the patience to care to put in the effort to get the chapters. Any manga series I read now, is one that is complete so I can finish it off in one shot. I hardly ever use NicoNico anymore and as much as I like Vocaloid music I can’t be bothered to keep up with it anymore. I tried to force myself to draw an anime or manga related fanart at least once a week but again on Sunday I broke my schedule and drew nothing.
I haven’t had cable TV in my apartment in 4 years. This was because Anime & Manga were enough to entertain me and not have me bother with paying an extra $50 a month. But now? I actually have shows I want to watch on US TV. Omg it’s a miracle? And I don’t mean watching Death Note dubs here either. Hell I could hardly ever find anything interesting on Imagin Asian. I feel like I saw the same commercials for their shows on their channel then I did actual anime or whatever the hell else they were showing at the time. (Hit me on my iphone~mahmah iphone~ )
“Maybe it’s just a phase.” I think I kept telling myself that eventually I’d get back into anime just like I did back in 2006 but so far that hasn’t happened. I feel like every show I watch is a rehash of what I’ve seen before, and the ones I don’t watch are not interesting for me to watch anyway. I haven’t been able to make it through more than 5 minutes of new season episodes (causing me to rage about poop). I’ve been trying to keep my interest going for the last half a year but it’s just not there anymore.
Unlike this blog, I’ve been actively updating my game blog because that’s currently where my interest lies. Even though I play games that have somewhat of an “anime feel” or relevance to them, it’s more of an active approach to this hobby. The whole watch anime as it is just isn’t working for me anymore. It feels like watching a rerun of the same show except in each episode they change their hair and clothes or something. I guess I’ll try to finish off what I’m watching this season and maybe pop in here & there to post some commentary but at this point I can’t guarantee anything. There’s just no motivation at all.
Maybe just like in 2006, the Spring season will bring the interest back in, but looking at the upcoming shows on MoonPhase, other than Full Metal Alchemist sequel I can’t see myself jumping back on board.